I don’t have a fear of commitment - I have a fear of abandonment. We all screw things up; I screw things up, especially with the people I love. I get needy, I get moody, I get distant, I want to be too close, I get confused. I don’t understand all of it but I keep pushing because I hope in this thing - the universe. There’s no way I’m the only person out there who wants something this bad. If I want it, someone else out there must, too.
Anyway, I just came back from meeting Heather. We were supposed to go for Melissa's birthday party but it keep drizzling on and off so we decided to just slack at MP's block downstairs. It felt damn good to be back at there. It gives me the feeling of being young was again just like Tiong Bahru. So carefree and so chill. And we talked about our lives again, she said that I've changed for the worse :( Did I? But I wish I could go back to the past too...